I refuse to run outside. Why? Because people might see me and notice my not-so-good form or my lack of endurance. In fact, right now, I’m only able to do intervals–60 seconds of running followed by a 90-120 second walk. Anyone who sees me start up a jog only to stop a wee bit later will probably wonder “Was it a mistake? Is she just trying to run away from a bug?”
But I gotta run somewhere and I don’t have a treadmill in my apartment. That’s probably good for the people who work in the office below me. I’m fairly certain they wouldn’t like hearing the awkward clomp-clomp-clomp of me on a treadmill doing jog-walk intervals.
The other problems with running outside: I’m a fair-skinned girl with a family history of skin cancer. Don’t really feel like slapping on the sunscreen fore a 30 minute run. Also, the weather this June has sucked–tons of rain. I find running outside more tiring and a little awkward. Even on a track. I’ve ALWAYS hated running. In high school, I played volleyball and we ran laps around the gym or (in nice weather) the school to warm up. I dreaded those laps. A volleyball court is pretty small–I couldn’t understand why we needed to increase cardio endurance when our movement area was relatively small. Afterwards, I had corrective surgery on my left foot, so I convinced myself running could further injure myself. When I was heavier I convinced myself that I was too fat to run.
All of these has served as excuses for me NOT to run. Although I may not be good at running, I am awesome at coming up with excuses to get me out of running. Somehow something changed. I saw 250-350lb contestants on The Biggest Loser sprinting 7mph on treadmills at the ranch. And then–the big convincer–ladies at my Weight Watchers group were talking about running on their home treadmills. Ladies who were 55 and 65 years old!
So… if they can do it, I can too.
I’m gradually breaking down these barriers. Saturday morning, I woke up early thanks to a chorus of birds screeching outside my bedroom window. I was tired. My achilles tendons felt tight and inflamed again. I was seriously considering bagging my workout for the third day in a row. Or giving myself an “easy” workout on the elliptical.
An hour later, I convinced myself to get to the gym and sneak in a run. Yes–I spent more time convincing myself to do it than I actually spent workout out. But the feeling good part lasted much longer.
I’ve gotten over my fear of letting people see me run. It turns out the treadmill feels easier on my joints and the shorter running area helps me keep shorter strides which is better for my back and always-too-tight hamstrings.
I’m still amazed at how out of shape I still am. I continue to have to find new ways to challenge myself in spin so I can maintain a higher (150s-160s) heart rate. Yet, when I jog, my heart rate reaches the 160s within the first 20-30 seconds only to fall back to the 140s once I start walking.
When people have heard I’m doing the Couch to 5k program, they’ve asked me if I’m planning on running a 5k. Oh, helllllll no! At this point, I’m simply looking to include more high intensity cardio in my workout routine and gradually increase my endurance. If I could run a mile without stopping to walk, I’d be happy.
Now, it’s Monday, weekend travel is over and it’s time to get back to my routine. The week already feels like it’s slamming me. Planning time!
- Greek yogurt and fruit
- LF cheese, veggies and crackers
- Cottage cheese & fruits or veggies
- Weight Watchers yogurt with Cocoa Almonds